Poems By Sue Andhika

H.

2012-01-26T14:20:00.000+08:00

I'll be your light when it's dark

Hold your hand and guide you through.

I'll be your beacon of hope

Your pillar of strength.

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2011-08-12T10:46:00.000+08:00

You've been gone for so long
I don't remember your face anymore
Memories of you have turned to dust.
Relying on faded and yellowed photographs of you to bring back forgotten memories.

You wilted before I bloomed
But I am your seed and will continue to flourish.
My own seed is growing his roots onto the firm ground you raised us on.
You started this tree and it will continue to reach onwards towards the heavens.

My wedding vow.

2011-05-13T02:21:00.000+08:00

With this ring, as a symbol of my love to you,
I promise to be true and faithful to you
To always support you and be your pillar of strength,
To comfort you in times of your need.

I vow to always be by your side
In sickness and in health, riches and poverty.
To cherish every smile and laughter, kiss and hug,
To always hold you dear in my heart.

I vow to love you and only you for as long as we both shall live and till we are separated by death.

A Poet's Death

2011-04-25T14:12:00.001+08:00

This dreary mundane day to day living has eroded a part of me.
I'm losing my grip, my touch of magic almost gone.
Fatigue has slowly seeped into my bones
Complacency has settled in my heart.
Like a bird trapped in a cage
I'm slowly dying, losing my once prized feathers.
Withering into nothingness,
This poet has died.

2010-07-17T05:30:00.002+08:00

I await your arrival with joy and love

You are my gift from the Lord above.

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2010-06-06T18:01:00.002+08:00

As these tears fall from my wretched self and onto this blessed ground

I wonder what is to become of me.
Trepidation sits at the edge of my heart.
Negativity and doubt slowly infiltrate my mind like weeds crawling up a plant threatening to suffocate it.
The Devil sings in my head.
Crying with my fist in my mouth,
I whispered in my heart, "Praise be to You.There is none greater than You.Glory is to You.Lend me Your strength.Give me courage."

020210

2010-02-02T17:07:00.000+08:00

This love,it's so destructive.

A relationship with death.

I live on the edge,away from sensibility.

You poison my mind and way of thoughts.

I lay motionless at the pit of brokenhearts.

I covered myself with the roses' thorns and numb my bruised heart.

I'm bled of my emotions.

My spirit is dying a formless death

The medicine man gave me his love potion

And I flew with the fairies as a child of the dawn.

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2010-02-02T16:58:00.000+08:00

We go up and we go down

But I'll still wear that white gown..

Wa may fight

But we're cool baby,we tight.

Yeah,we constatantly squabble

But for you I'll break every rule and get into the deepest trouble.

Cause I love you,you stupid fool.

I'm putting up a front,I'm trying to be cool.

140110

2010-02-02T16:53:00.001+08:00

I sat by the phone,hoping you will call.

Silently begging you to.

I waited till dawn and dusk and dawn and dusk.

I waited till the sun died

And till there is no breadth in me.

Even after death I will wait.

My superman

2010-01-11T18:14:00.002+08:00

You can be my superman
You can rescue me,you can hold my hand.
You'll save me from bullets,missiles and dynamites.
Nothing can stop you,not even kryptonite.
You can hold me in your arms.
I know I'll be save from any danger or harm.

Die,Die,Die.

2010-01-08T19:03:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna slaughter you!
You fucking asshole,you weren't true!
I want every drop of your blood!
How could you do that slut?
See this?I'm gonna blow you apart.
Gonna drink your blood then eat your heart!

080110

2010-01-08T18:52:00.002+08:00

Slice my chest wide open,I have no heart.

I gave it to this asshole and he broke it from the start.

That motherfucker tore it to pieces

Now I'm going to chop him into tiny slices.

Scum,I'm gonna kill you!

Fuck it!I'ma do your family too!

2010-01-08T15:55:00.002+08:00

You left me in the cold of the night.
Now I'm sitting here,
Trying not to cry.
Biting back those tears.
It's a silent lonely night.
I wish I could slip into the darkness and sleep among the walking dead.
I keep looking back
Hoping I'll see you in the distant light
But all I see is the night's stillness.

Picture from photobucket.

Every time I look at you

2009-10-09T13:08:00.001+08:00

Every time I look at you
My heart swells with love.
I adore you, I have a thing for you.
I fancy the pants off you,
I have a weakness for you and only you.
You have my complete and unwavering affection and devotion.
Fuck, I’m obsessed with you,
I worship you.
I’m insane for you,
I’ll feel the pain for you.
Go ahead, shed a tear
I’m here, I’ll lick it off.
I’m staying, I ain’t moving.
That’s what I feel
Every time I look at you.

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2009-10-09T13:04:00.002+08:00

I wake up with you in my thoughts.
I fall asleep thinking of you.
I dream of you in my slumber.
You fill my mind with idellic pictues of a future us.
You have filled the void in my heart.

In this head and heart

2009-08-29T00:39:00.003+08:00

In my head,

I have held you in my arms,

Sung you lullabies and watch you sleep.

In my head,

I have caressed your cheeks,

Kissed your little fingers.

In my head,

I have called you by your name,

And loved you more than life.

In my head,

I see you next to me,

I see you grown up.

In my heart,

I long for these to come true.

In my heart,

I seek forgiveness for Him.

In my heart,

lies my buried pain and anguish.

In my heart,

lies a picture of you.

Mourning

2009-08-24T01:41:00.002+08:00

The shadows speak to her.

Her heart cries in tormented grief.

She mourns her lost child.

Her lips are sealed with pain.

She is loved yet she feels utterly alone.

She is lost in her world.

She pines for her lost child.

I Miss You

2009-07-27T13:13:00.001+08:00

Twitching like a bunny

on crystal meth

Cos I'm missing you,

Longing to see you

and nestle safely

in your embrace.

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2009-07-24T12:00:00.002+08:00

Things around me are chaotic

And mind fuckingly harmful.

Where there was no light, I found you,

Waiting with arms wide open.

And in there I shall stay,

Sheltered from all the dramatic pain.

You took my tiny hands

And place it in yours.

I feel safe.

I snuggle with contention and a smug smile,

Knowing I'm untouchable

For as long as I stay in your cocoon.

050509

2009-05-05T20:01:00.002+08:00

Our hearts used to beat as one

But now we beat to our own rhythm.

The melody that once binds us

Rests on the untouched piano.

Where are you my love?

Why has thou forsaken me?

Have you forgotten your vows to me

That you took before the Gods?

It seems like our love has dwindled to nothingness.

And I lay here

Beneath the milky way

Waiting for sadness to consume me whole.

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2009-04-10T02:49:00.002+08:00

I slit the green lines

that keeps me alive.

Slit em' till the red liquid

that keeps me alive

stains my pristine white shirt.

Won't stop till it runs out,

Won't stop till this hurt is gone.

http://media.photobucket.com/image/mutilate/Angel_0203/selfmutilation.jpg?o=10

2009-04-05T04:20:00.002+08:00

I sat in depth of my misery and sadness

Our memories flashing in front of me.

Emotions surge through me

Felt the raw emotions gnawing at my bruised heart.

Baring my inner self to you

Left my soul mutilated.

I'm crippled,a walking wreck.

An evanescent of my former self.

http://media.photobucket.com/image/broken%20love/nataliaveronica/love.jpg?o=22

Crying

2009-04-05T04:10:00.002+08:00

Late at night

When no one is around

I cry my heart out

From the waiting,the disappointment & the hurt.

Nobody knows

My happy face is just facade.

I'm falling to pieces

Little by little.

My heart is breaking

My will is crumbling

I am fading.

http://media.photobucket.com/image/crying/ndlss_nghtmares/crying.jpg?o=13

Broken

2009-04-05T03:36:00.004+08:00

I watched the stars fall
I watched the sun die
My heart is breaking.
I watched the darkening of the sky
The mournful cry of the lonesome soul.
My heart is breaking.

http://media.photobucket.com/image/broken%20heart/zumoku666/untitled-9.jpg?o=50

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2009-04-03T15:45:00.004+08:00

You spin me round and round

Round you little finger.

I orgasm with love

As the swirls and twirls consume me whole.

We lay in each other's arms

Contented and whole

After our carnal connection.

Waking the neighbours with our screams of desire.

No thoughts,no doubts about it.

Just love,love and love.

http://media.photobucket.com/image/couples/portia34_2007/couples/4e17cd489183.jpg?o=2

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2009-03-09T15:23:00.002+08:00

The blistering cold

Wilted flowers lie among the ruins of a lover's nest

The fading sun,

The darkening sky,

The still silence,

My heart is frozen.

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2009-03-09T15:11:00.003+08:00

When he smiles,it feels like chocolate melting onto my heart.

His laughter tickles my heart.

I think I'm in love.

His words caresses my heart into a slow cardiac arrest.

His kisses drives me into a slow comatose state of bliss.

I think I'm in love.

2009-02-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

I would die a thousand deaths for you.

2009-01-25T18:20:00.002+08:00

May the blood from my slit veins

Purge my sinned soul.

I tried to stay within sight of the light

But darkness beckons me to my old ways.

I slipped and fell into the abyss of no return.

I tried to claw my way out.

Screaming,crying;unheard in the cold frigid silence.

The world moves on.

I lay alone in the deep silent cold.

2009-01-25T10:50:00.001+08:00

Lest' we separate

Let us not hate.

040109

2009-01-13T15:45:00.002+08:00

I'm learning, I'm trying
To forget the past,
To let go of my heart's dangerous desires.

I'm learning, I'm trying
To fall in love again,
To make this wrong right.

I'm learning, I'm trying
Judge me not
Abandon me not.

040108

2009-01-13T15:43:00.000+08:00

I have no regrets,
You are mine
As much as I am yours
Perhaps even more.

040109

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2009-01-13T15:30:00.002+08:00

My heart beats in pain,
My secret lover's death.
I sat in my blinding silence of grief
Sleep is no more for me.
The night darkens
The wind is dead.
I await the arrival of the moon
and light's death.
In twilight hours
I hear you calling me.
Your ghostly touch caressing my heart
I miss you so.
I try to find you in the darkness
But you have moved from my world.

Rabindra Rachnavali's words

Suyanti
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011208

2008-12-03T09:16:00.003+08:00

Fightin' and dyin
Killin' and stealin'
I'm kickin' and screamin'
What's happenin' to the world
People killin' people
Bloodshed and chaos everywhere
Mothers prayin' for their sons
Daughters cryin' for their daddy.
Fightin' and dyin'
Killin' and stealin'
I'm kickin' and screamin'
What's happenin' to the world
People hatin' people
Race,religion,language
Discrimination the new age.
Can we stop before it's too late?

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2008-12-03T09:16:00.001+08:00

No amount of words
Can express my love for you
Mindblowin' experiences
Numbfucking my body out of its consciouness
Threatenin' the peace of my mind

The Kiss

2008-11-24T16:30:00.000+08:00

He looked into my eyes
And I got lost in his soft brown eyes.
He held me closer.
I could feel my heart in my throat.
He came closer
And we looking eye to eye.
I could feel his breadth.
His eyes bore deep into pristine soul.
His fingers caressing my cheeks
And with that he brought his lips to mine.
I felt his gentle sweet lips
My heart slowing down.
I could feel the blood in my ears
And I swear the world stopped.
My knees felt wobbly,
I was melting away.
Melted by his sweet kiss.
My fingers got lost in the swirls and twirls of his hair.
He wrapped his arms around me.
And we kissed till the fairies went home.
Till the wolves cried
And till the morning sun came greeted us.
(Nov 19 08)

2008-11-11T15:22:00.002+08:00

There is no anger.
There is no hatred.
There is only no space for you in my heart.

The Curse

2008-11-04T15:44:00.003+08:00

I curse the lips that spake that sentence

And the hard hearts that ordained it.

I curse that you rot in hellfire eternally

And that your bloodline be born with no blessing from the Gods

And be cursed with the Devil's spite and wrath

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2008-11-04T15:35:00.002+08:00

I left with injustice served

Did nothing wrong

That crime was a choice you made

I did not partake nor did I influence

Yet you put the blame on me

Spinning pretty little lies

To save your cowardly arse

My secrets I did reveal beforehand

Yet you claim I buried them

Who's the one betraying the 'trust'

I see your true colours now.

I should have listened to you babe.

27Oct2008

2008-10-27T15:10:00.003+08:00

http://www.flickr.com/photos/mashafeeg/1018740988/

I have gone and I am not coming back

Nothing nor no one held me back.

Blood is thicker than water

But the mind is stronger than the heart.

I spread my wings

And take that leap of faith.

Will I soar or will fall?

Only time will tell.

I find that strength in me

And carry myself onwards.

2008-10-24T10:00:00.001+08:00

You have gone

And now I'm free

To fly my own way

To be my own person.

Wasted

2008-10-24T09:41:00.003+08:00

Wasted moments
Wasted memories.
My heart you bruised.
Left me crying in the cold.
You let me fall
Now I'm broken.
Wasted sacrifices.
Blinded by rage
Wanted me to be something I'm not.
Words not actions it is to you.
Wasted moments
Wasted memories.

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2008-10-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

I need you now.
I gotta see you now.
I'm so glad to be yours.
You're in a league of you're own.
I swear the world stops
When you kiss me.
I don't want anybody else.
It's either you or no one else.
Cos baby you're my all.
You're the best part of my life.

13.10.08

2008-10-13T20:05:00.000+08:00

I knew from the start that you would be mine
My heart spoke after eternities of silence.
You're the only one who makes my heart beat.
I could never live without you
What I'm feeling now,
It has to be true.
I feel you from the inside.
When you're not by my side
You're the only guy on my mind.

stolen

2008-10-13T20:00:00.001+08:00

We watched sunrises
Catched the sunsets.
Sun soaked skies
Love soaked hearts.
Sleeping under the starry lit sky.
Our love keeping us warm.
You are the best one of the best one.
You have stolen my heart.

11.10.08

2008-10-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

Everytime i try to fly.i fall.
my wings burned through the painful destruction of time
i see your haunting face in my dreams.
i made believe that you aRe here
to help me breathe and ease the discomfort in my heart.
i feel so small without my wings
i need you baby.
i may have cause the brewing storm
i'm sorry.
i pray that your face will fade into nothingness.

2008-10-05T04:28:00.002+08:00

Words unspoken are buried deep within me
I gave you the key to my heart
It's up to you
To take that step
And find out what's written
Beneath the tough layers.
Peer into my heart
Carved onto my heart; you!

Buried Deep within

2008-10-05T04:13:00.002+08:00

Loving you more than life itself
You are that constant beat in my fragile heart
Please don't go
Don't walk away
And leave me here
For saddness will consume me whole
And life would be too cruel,dark and lonely
I love you so much it hurts to breathe
Like the air I breathe you are always there.

2008-10-03T19:38:00.002+08:00

from the day i saw you
i knew our fate was sealed.
the chemistry we felt on that day felt so real and so true.
you're my world,my everything
give you everything you dream and fanasize.
you keep it real with me
i keep it real with you.
you keep on loving me
i keep on loving you.
you'll always be apart of me
as long as time keeps on passing by.
i can't believe i found a love so true
i put my trust in you
i must admit it wasn't easy to do.
every minute i spend with you
you made me belive that i have nothing to lose.

2008-10-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

are you aware of what you make me feel
right now i feel invisble to you
why did you turn away you left me there to cry
here's what i have to say
why should i care
you weren't there when i was scared
i was so alone
you need to listen
im trippin
losing my grip
and im in this thing alone
am i your replacement
can you even recognise me
you used to love and hug me
now everything's a mess.
im crying.
crying out loud.

2008-10-03T19:30:00.002+08:00

im standing here
i stand waiting in the dark
you said you'd be here
the rain's pouring
i hear nothing
nothing's going right
and everything's a mess
isn't anyone trying to find me
won't somebody come and take me home
why's everything so confusing
maybe im just going out of my mind
don't who you are
but take me
take me by the hand
take me somewhere new

2008-10-03T19:27:00.000+08:00

You gave me that kiss
it made me go Oh Oh
you wiped away my tears
took away all my fears
i wanna sit and stare at you
you're the only one i'd be with till the end
you bring me back again
whenever i come undone
wanna know how you feel
wanna know what is real.

2008-10-03T19:25:00.002+08:00

what would you do if you had no more time left with me
would you cherish our love
i was everything you wanted
im wishing you were here
you were everything i ever wanted
only Lord knows everyday is not guranteed
how do we really know what love is
its everythng we were looking for
im so glad i found you
cos you were everything i was looking for

2008-10-03T19:21:00.002+08:00

I do not believe in what you give
I'm left here waiting to die
Not believing in the sun
That's unable to light this dark heart
I stop hoping
And wait for the arrival of darkness
Till the moment comes
Where i do not receive love
Why is there saddness when there is love
Why is there darkness when the light is calm
I return with no vengence
I accept my defeat
I return with no vengence
I salute your victory
You wanted me happy
You wanted me to feel pain and saddness
You showed me happiness
You showed me pain and sadness
You gave me happiness
You gave me pain and saddness
I Slowly release it
One day I will understand.
I stop hoping
And await the arrival of darkness
Till the day I stop receiving love.

2008-10-03T19:16:00.002+08:00

I wanna be the dreams in your sleep
I wanna be someone that you can miss
My steps falter without you
I wanna be something that you can always hold
I want you to know that I love you always
Without you
Time passes;lonely and calls upon my heart
Your shadows are haunting
You are like the song in my heart
Calling my missing heart to you
Like the air I breathe
You are always there
You're the only one who can calm me down
Without you
I feel lost and lonely

2008-10-03T19:09:00.002+08:00

Sophie
I won't be coming tonight
Am running from your love
Sophie
I won't be coming back today
Don't search for me in the name of your love
Face it
Our love won't last
Goodnight my sweetheart
May you forget me quick
Your sweetheart will never forget you
Goodbye my love
Your sweetheart never had the heart to love you
Sophie
Don't ever call for me
Face it
Our love won't last

2008-10-03T19:04:00.002+08:00

I'm willing to wait a thousand years
But would the Gods let me live that long
Time may fly
I won't lose hope
Faithful always
I'm willing to chase you for thousands of miles
But would my mortal legs carry me that far
Time may fly
I won't lose hope
Faithful always

2008-10-03T19:01:00.001+08:00

In my arms you belong
Till the day my life is through
I give you my word
I give you my heart
We have won the battle
So just close your eyes
Know that this feeling wont go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

2008-10-03T18:59:00.001+08:00

I'm weak without you
Your love is the only thing that can revive me.
Goodbye stopped my heart
Even then I'd still hold you in my thoughts,
To me you are my everlasting love.
When what's written for me
Is what's best for you
I'll make you my sweetest memory.
Yet it won't be easy for me to leave my life
that's been carved with sweet memories of you.

2008-10-03T18:55:00.001+08:00

I'll take that dance with
I'll cry along with you
Tremble each time you kiss me
For you I'll die
Just hold me in your arms
Would you be my hero
Kiss away my pain
Stand by me forever
I swear I'll always be yours
You take my breadth away

2008-10-03T18:51:00.002+08:00

my heart is screaming for joy
its doing backflips
cnt help tis happy feeling
erupting all over
leaving me tingling
and wanting more
you are my sweetest addiction
my kryptonite
i love you so much it hurts yet it feel so good
u r akin to a shining star
i sat on the edge of the dark world
waiting for some one to rescue me
out of the sky you fell
and into my life.
my shining star.
Je T'aime

18.09.08

2008-09-29T14:15:00.002+08:00

I wish she didn't have to go
I wish she could stay and watch me grow.
Too young too remember anything
My young mind shutting out completely any memories of her.
I can't see her in my dreams
Or relive our memories in my head.
I have nothing but faded pictures.
No memories
Only hurt.
Mama come back.
Oh how I've missed you so
A decade of life without you.
We never said goodbye.
You quietely slipped away.
I can't bring you back.
Went somewhere I can't take you back.

2008-09-28T19:34:00.002+08:00

Casting a shadow of doubt
Over my faded confused state of mind,
I sit and ponder.
Are we made for each other?
Would our signs crash disastrously
Or would they shine side by side harmoniously across the velvet night sky?
Would we dancing to the same melody
Or would we be dancing to our own solo tunes?
Am I too tough for you
Perhaps you are too gentle for me?
Opposites attracting
The law of physics.
We are so different yet we are the same.

Addict

2008-09-26T16:35:00.001+08:00

i lay here

unable to move or get up

im too doped out

stoned to the deepest core of my rotting soul

snorted too much

yet they re not enough

im chasing cars in my head

bright lights

shit.the cops

bang.bang,they got me

fragment of my demented imagination

your perfect eyes

they re all i can see

everything else seems hazy

blurred vision

the soft fluttering of angelic wings

i see the golden gates of heaven

feels like im floating

im on a high

addictive rush

In Love With You

2008-09-26T16:32:00.001+08:00

This heart is bursting at the seams
Dying to let it all out
Kicking and screaming
Headbangingly in love with you

Setting my world on my fire
Passion coursing through my veins
Igniting unspoken desires
Dangerously in love with you

Shredding and ripping
Every ounce of self defense
Ready to take the plunge
Madly in love with you

Because I love You

2008-09-25T19:03:00.002+08:00

My tongue twisted
Unable to express myself.
My minds a racing wreck
Yet my heart is at rest.
We were danced in centuries' shadows
Blissfully unaware.
You tie my heart up in tangles
Intoxicated with love I am.
I find no solace in the sky
I find no comfort on earth
Till I feel your hand in mine.

2008-09-21T22:26:00.001+08:00

Hye.

www.divineintoxication.blogspot.com

Dats my picture blog.

Poetry is here.
Pictures are there.

170809

2008-09-18T16:32:00.007+08:00

Fear sets in.
Will he hit me?
Never been this afraid.
Am petrified.
Will my past repeats itself?
I'm shaking
I'm unsure.
He said he wouldn't.
But I can't help it.
The fear has set in.
I see the signs.
Raised voices.
Clenched fists.
Tapping feet.
Any moment now.
I keep still.
Ready for the blows.
Too afraid to move
Yet ready to bolt.

And it came.
The blows were quick.
Couldn't remember anything.
His hands a blur.
Blow after blow after blow after blow.
Can't think.
All I felt was that searing pain across my face.
And then it got dark.

His voice jolted me.
It was all but real.
Just my past playing itself unto my head.
I know he didn't
But I am afraid.
He didn't hurt me
But all trust that he wouldn't is now gone.
You didn't but you almost did.
Or so it felt to me.
Am nothing but an empty shell.

170908

2008-09-18T16:32:00.003+08:00

Fabricated lies

Spinning out of control.

Unspoken connection

Shattered due to jealousy.

Broken friendships

Loved but left alone

160908

2008-09-17T16:01:00.004+08:00

Reckless Endangerment
My heart's a bruise.
My mind's a mix up
My words a jumbled.
I feel.
I can't write.
I can't rhyme.
Losing my touch.
Where's my muse?

2008-09-17T16:01:00.002+08:00

Things are getting tougher

I gotta get stronger.

Things are getting rougher

I gotta move faster.

170908

2008-09-17T15:56:00.002+08:00

There lived a girl
Who was true as the bright sun above.
She found love among the chaos,
She was his rosemary sweetheart.
But the Gods took her lover away.
In anguish she weeps.
Her tears formed the rivers.
The rivers mingled with the sea.
She gave her love away
But she never got it back.
Her strength she could not find
Farewell she bade to the mortal world.
Her mortal body laid to rest
Her soul a screaming banshee.
Will she ever get on her voyage unburdened?

2008-09-16T15:40:00.005+08:00

look at the clouds

The Perfect Proposal

2008-09-13T03:35:00.001+08:00

Let us two be as one.

Will you be mine?

130908

2008-09-13T01:55:00.004+08:00

I stumbled and fell into the depths of despair
I lost myself to the twirls of the lost souls.
Trying to nurse a broken heart
I covered my pain and lived my life
Pushing all things aside
Partying and letting go.
Getting wasted and getting hurt.
I covered my heart with thorns
And kept all else out.
I met you.
Patient beyond words
Brick by brick you took my wall down
Stripped me down to the bones.
Made me face my hurt and pain
Yet standing by me always.
Took away my fears and doubts
Helped me find my standing ground.
Made me believe in God and love.
Took me as I am,loved me as I am.
Held my hand as we face the adversities that just kept on coming
It was worth every sacrifice.
You're the best damn thing that ever happened to me.

2008-09-10T14:20:00.001+08:00

You are so precious to me
Words can't describe
what's buried deep within me.

Writer's block...anybody wanna try finishing it for me.go ahead.try.

2008-09-10T14:15:00.002+08:00

I'm standing all alone.
Patiently waiting.
For you to come.
Let's run away.
Go to our secret hiding place.
No distractions.
No complications.
Just you and me.
And the love within us.
That's dying to be let out.
Bursting at the sides.
Blooming and alive.
Our hearts electrified with passion.
Our souls entwine as one.
You and I.

2008-09-10T14:07:00.002+08:00

I can't help this feeling
Can't stop that voice in my head
Telling me I ain't good enough
Telling me I ain't pretty enough
I don't know what to do
DON'T KNOW WHY I CAN'T STOP THESE FEELINGS
Fought these demons before
Can't see why I can't slay them again
What's happening to me
I seem to be losing myself
I can't help it
It's tiring to keep on fighting.
One more hit and I'll fall
Into the bottomless pits of self pity.

2008-09-06T01:24:00.001+08:00

cat or raccoon?

2008-09-01T13:35:00.000+08:00

black n white

2008-09-01T13:19:00.005+08:00

My Models for the day

Cats Galore

2008-08-26T22:50:00.005+08:00

Fireworks Galore

2008-08-24T15:54:00.004+08:00

from a frenster bulletin

2008-08-22T00:33:00.003+08:00

☆~ When she stares at your mouth = "Kiss her"

☆~ When she pushes you or hits you like a dumb ass cos she thinks shes stronger than you = "Grab her and don't let go"

☆~ When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough = "Kiss her and tell her you love her"

☆~ When she's quiet = "Ask her what's wrong"

☆~ When she ignores you = "Give her your attention"

☆~ When she pulls away = "Pull her back"

☆~ When you see her at her worst = "Tell her she's beautiful"

☆~ When you see her start crying = "Just hold her and don't say a word"

☆~ When you see her walking = "Sneak up and hug her waist from behind"
scared = "Protect her"

☆~ When she steals your favorite hat = "Let her keep it and sleep with it

☆~ When she doesn't answer for a long time = "Reassure her that everything is okay"

☆~ When she bumps into you = "Bump into her back and make her laugh"

☆~ When she tells you a secret = "Keep it safe and untold"

☆~ When she looks at you in your eyes = "Don't look away until she does"

☆~ When she says it's over = "She still wants you to be hers"

☆~ Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

☆~ When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

☆~ When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10yrs later she'll remember you to tell her you love her

☆~ Treat her like she's all that matters to you

☆~ Stay up all night with her when she's sick

☆~ Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid

☆~ Give her the world

☆~ Let her wear your clothes

☆~ When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

☆~ Let her know she's important, kiss her in the pouring rain

The Voice

2008-08-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

This heart is at peace
But this mind's a wreck.
Your words brought back my worst nightmare
I thought she was gone but now she's back.
Her words are hurting
I know I shouldn't believe her
But it's easier said than done.
I just wanna hit my head hard agianst the wall
Hoping.That 'll drive her away.
I can't shut her up.
"You're fat.Nobody's gonna like you"
"You're ugly.Nobody's gonna like you"
Can't block out these nasty thoughts.
Somebody please make her stop.
My head's a turmoil.
Can't take it no more.
I don't wanna lose the confidence I had built.
I know I gotta hold fast the faith.
I know I gotta believe in me and not her.

But she is apart of me
She's in my head.
She's my voice.

Could it be?
What she says is true?
What if it is?

National Library

2008-08-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord

2008-08-20T20:14:00.008+08:00

O Dear Mighty Lord

How cruel could you be?

Playing tricks on your humble servants.

Letting our paths crossed.

Letting us fall in love.Only to tear us apart.

We lost and found each other again.

But you wrote a harsh fate for our love.

Made for each other but never destined to be together.

You taught us the cruelly the true meaning of love.

Our eyes were opened,our hearts wiser.

Lord,just spare us a moment to be together

And finish what we started.

goodbye?

2008-08-20T20:09:00.003+08:00

And so this is it.

This day that we have both feared.Dawning upon us before we knew it.

Our memories flooding back.

Our happines was but real.

And so it is time.

The moment we kept running aay from.

Telling ourselves to keep believing it'll never happen.

Memories may slip away.

Hopes may die.

Feelings may fade.

But my scars will never heal.

200808

2008-08-20T20:05:00.004+08:00

Don't make fun of my curves

Why can't I get what I deserve.

I'm trying.I'm trying to be perfect.

I'm trying to be your perfect woman.

2008-08-20T19:59:00.003+08:00

She looks into the mirror

And sees nothing but flaws.

She knows she's beautiful

But she's finding it harder and harder to believe.

She knows she's not perfect

But she tries to see beauty in her flaws.

She tried to hold her head up high

But the world is pulling her down.

Im Yours - Jason Mraz

2008-08-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

But I won't hesitate

no more,no more,

it cannot wait

I'm yours

She is close to your heart.

2008-08-19T12:43:00.003+08:00

She is close to your heart
She allured you with her beauty and charm
You allowed your kingly power to vanish
She has made you captive.

She is close to your heart
She made you forgot all but her
Your past memories faded and crumbled
Nothing but a fluttering distant shadow in reality.

She is close to your heart
Your rosemary sweetheart
She made your heart long for her sweet memories.
She is your delicious torment.

She is close to your heart.
She stirs a longing deep within you
You tried to resist
but your heart's desire causes you to lose all self control.

She is close to your heart.
You've let her in.

2008-08-19T00:24:00.001+08:00

hold it tight
don't ever let it go.
the road is dark
i am uncertain.

i am afraid.

i need you now.

day by day

2008-08-18T01:16:00.001+08:00

day by day
this heart grows fonder of you
day by day
you consume all of my thoughts
day by day
you linger in my heart longer
day by day
i feel for you
day by day
the desire to be with you grows
day by day
i fall in love with you

love dun need a reason

2008-08-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

cos i heart you...

2008-08-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

If only for a moment
I could watch you sleep at night,
Be you morning sky and your starry light.

If only for a moment
I could hold you in my arms,
Hold you close and keep you away from harm.

If only for a moment
I could stay by your side
I'll love you forever,I'd have nothing to hide.

If only for a moment

2008-08-14T23:15:00.001+08:00

2008-08-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

i know i shouldnt

i know its wrong

but somehow this

wrong feels right.

2008-08-12T22:32:00.003+08:00

120808

2008-08-12T01:47:00.004+08:00

Star Gods
I thank thee for your kindness.
I thank thee for your belief in my faith and undying pledge to you and Her Goddess.

Star Gods
You showed him the way to me
He healed your humble servant's grieving heart
and restored her faith in the magic of love
And now
this this humble servant of yours has a request.

Star Gods
I bow to you and your ways of true love
I come humbled and honoured.
I come seeking a need.

Star Gods
I come on my knees asking that you
Bless this man who helped your servant
Send angels to watch over him
Protect him from the ways of the tempting darkness

Star Gods
I speak through sealed lips
My heart and blood offered
Stars carved on my wrist
A symbol of my faith.
Please grant me my wish.